know me this well? think again

i'll do whatever i want. i know, it is wrong. but my heart has it's own way of healing itself. has it's own way of finding peace. has it's own way of finding joy. has it's own way of having fun.

i need no one to tell me what's what and what's good or bad for my heart.

everyone has their own own shit to be taken care of. don't care for mine.

i am not normal. but that doesn't mean i am not like the others. i still have feelings. still have weak spots, like all of you.

i am not mature but i can still think of the pros and cons. i can determine which is better or worse. being childish doesn't mean i don't have responsibilities. there are times that i can be playful and there are times that i can have a serious face.

i give in most of the time. but not in all aspects. friends and family are the first ones. there are times that i shall stand up for my pride and there are times that i don't care at all. and count me out if you want me to stand up for politics and stuff like that. i don't know no pekida, mafia nor samseng. i see you as you are-an individual. a weak one.

and if you come up to me and present yourself as a hater, a racist and all of that, be prepared to be hated. because these people are the ones i hate so much. to be more accurate, i despise them. because i've been in many situations. many bitter ones. just because i am different and i don't hold onto the same things as you do, doesn't make you any different from me. as far as i know, all have been taught to be nice to others. guess you never tried being a good devotee.

and don't give me no shit about love. it's all bullshit. i ain't never gonna fall anymore. because i've known so many lies and so many cheats. no more games for me. i'm no player in this love game anymore. but i'm still a player in other games. play my game baby, and i'll give you what you want.

so, that's a 'lil bit of a description if you think you don't really know Amornrad Rattanakthada. if you are still interested of knowing me even after the hater-like-intro, be my guess and say hi to me :) love ya'all :)