i miss you

suddenly i miss my piercing la. hadoy terase nyesal. tapi at the same time bersyukur aku dah bukak.

dilemma hidup. takkan pernah habis. takkan pernah luput.

aku menipu, atau mereka yang tertipu?

aku kesian sama orang-orang yang add aku di myspace terutamanya. aku kesian sebab mereka tertipu. yang kau lihat, bukanlah apa yang benar.

tapi bila difikirkan semula, bukan salah aku mereka tertipu.

eh, salahkah aku?

atau salahkah mereka yang membuat andaian?

pasti kau bilang, itu sudah menjadi tanggungjawab aku untuk beritahu.

hmmm...

terkadang aku terfikir

memang patut begitu

biar kau tahu siapa aku

biar kau tahu bukan hanya 3 di malaysia ini

adapun aku menipu

aku menipu untuk mengajar

heh, aku tahu alasan karat aku berikan

tapi, peduli apa aku sama pendapat kau?

dah ketahuilah,

aku siam

dari malaysia

bukan siam dari siam

tak paham?

adakah cina itu harusnya datang dari negara china?

lu pakai kepale otak, pikir kasi dalam-dalam

jangan kasi buang masa mak ko lahirkan ko :)

dengar.. lihat..

dengar,
pasti kau akan tahu
apa cacatnya
apa buruknya

lihat,
pasti kau tahu mana kurangnya
mana celanya
mana hodohnya

tapi bila kau dengar,
tak semua kau tahu
dan bila kau lihat,
tak semua diilhat dengan terangnya

maka,
dengar dengan teliti
dengar dengan telinga
dan juga hati
fahami
dalami
pasti kau akan mengerti

maka,
lihat dengan sunguhnya
lihat dengan mata
dan juga gerak hati
mengertilah
kuasailah
pasti terbit bijaksana itu..

terkadang

terkadang tu, aku rindu
tapi bila dah bercakap
aku benci

terkadaang tu, aku ingat
tapi bila dah selalu
aku buat tak tahu

terkadang tu, aku biarkan
tapi bila dah fed-up
aku memang hilang minat

terkadang tu, aku ingin
tapi bila dah melebih
aku pun hilang mood

terkadang tu, aku rayu
tapi bila selalu begini
aku tak kenal erti simpati

terkadang tu
aku fikir
kenapa begini jadinya?
kenapa aku sanggup?
kenapa aku rela?

terkadang tu,
aku fikir
kenapa kau?

untukkmu

It's not easy to adjust ourselves to a new environment. Yeah, I sure do know about this. A couple times of moving from state to state and going to new places like UTAR taught me a lot.

And it had made me a lot tougher in handling things like this.

I know-you will always feel like you do not belong in that place. It's like you don't fit in. People around you have already had their own colleagues, their own gangs, their own click. And people will stare at you. Although most of the time, you're being too paranoid.

Believe me, I know.

But, you can't just take that as a setback. Or make that a reason for you not doing well in anything that you're supposed to do. It's just plain ridiculous.

So, you making a point that it is okay for you to not do your job well, not to be excellent and to be who you are just because you are in someplace new? Is that it?

Darls, no matter where you are, this matter shouldn't be the problem.

Yeah, you'll feel lonely. Yeah, you'll feel that you don't belong and want to get back to where you come from.

So, what? Get over with it la sayang.

Enough moping around. Cut the whining. Just get up, and take this as a challenge.

Because there's not enough time for all this crap dah. Wake up, and rise to the reality. You can always dream that you'll be back home. You can always hope. You can always play-pretend. But the cruel reality is still there. World ain't no haven no more babe.

Bangun, lihat mentari

Bangun, dongak kepalamu

Tunjukkan kepada dunia

Kau boleh

Kau mampu

Wipe your tears. Wipe the fear away too. After every storm, there'll be shine, waiting to brighten up the day.

After every tear, there'll be laughter. And the laughter you own will be much more meaningful, if it was gained, not just given. Betul ta?

And, you will always have your friends to help you. To tell you that you can. Friends are there to do so. And to love you. It will never replace the love that you have from your family. But it will do as much as. Enough to help you survive..

F, this is for you babe. Be strong :)

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