kata hati si boneka

"kau memang. babi. sial. jahanamlah kau. aku dah tak larat menahan rasa ni. rasa yang selalu buatku lemah. rasa yang selalu buatku menangis. rasa yang buatku rasa diriku bodoh. bahlul. senyuman yang selama ini kau tonton sememangnya sandiwara. lakonan, agar terlindung kelemahanku. terlindung kebodohanku. aku ego. tidak mahu melihat kau menyaksikan diriku yang lemah. jiwaku kacau hatiku gelisah. apa, tidak ada carakah untuk aku melupakan kau? kau layan aku macam sampah, aku terima. kau layan aku macam tahik, aku redha. kerana aku sayang. cinta. " ujar si minah.

"cinta? perkataan yang mudah dan sangat berbisa. kau bilang cinta, sayang, rindu. kau kata kau care, miss, love. tapi akhirnya, kata kata yang kau bisikkan hanya angin yang bertiup. sekadar menyinggah. tidak kekal. tidak selamanya. kau menghilangkan diri. alasan? concentrate study. ceh! tipu. " kata-kata pedih keluar dari mulut minah.

"aku sayang kau. rindu kau. tapi aku mahu kau terima akibatnya. supaya aku puas hati. supaya kau tahu apa rasanya menjadi aku. menjadi orang yang didustai. dikhianati. dibohongi."akhirnya, minah itu berhenti dan berlalu pergi. ke mana arahnya, belum dipastikan lagi. ke mana destinasinya, belum ditetapkan lagi. pandai pandaila dia menjaga dirinya.

Berakhirnya Satu Percintaan

Tak perlu kau nyatakan padaku

Curahan isi hati mu itu

Segalanya telah berakhir

Tak mungkin ku menerimamu

Hapuslah kenangan cinta lama

Angkara keterlanjuran cinta

Hentikan senda dan gurauan

Hanya menambahkan penyiksaan

Walaupun berat hati ku melepaskan dirimu

Itu sudah suratan takdir

Mungkin tiada kuntuman cinta

Jambangan kasih terkulai akhirnya

Berakhirnya satu percintaan

sekali lagy, busan XD

aji ni lmbt ah. dlm kelas mase ni..aku tggu nk strt belajau ta strt strt lagy. haih.. busan busan, aku pon menyimpang la. haha.. sorry ji XD dye tgh bedah siasat computer dye uh kott. sementare uh, inila hasilnyee XD

A Top Four Survey.

The Rules:

- look at your top 4 friends listed on your Myspace
- Don't change them!!
- Enter their names in order
- Be completely honest (within reason)
- Repost this so your friends can do it too.

1)ain
2)yat
3)fiyan
4)haziq

1. Are you older than number 4?
nope. he is

2. Have you gotten "sexual" with 3?
ngahaha

3. If you were to go to a wedding would you take 1?
i would. she's hot!

4. If you were crying would 2 cheer you up?
dye taw ke aku cryin'?

5. If you found out that 2 and 1 were going out, what would you do?
laugh my ass out

6. Which of your top 4 is your best friend?
1 && 3 are. 2 is my brother ;)

7. Have you hugged anyone in your top 4?
number one kot ;) cant remember kot

8. Have you been to any of their houses?
i've been into number one's. rumah keduaku ;)

10. Have you slept in any of their beds?
aku baring atas katil ain jep, nothing more thn tht ;P

11. Has any of the four ever spent the night at your house?
nope. rumah alu sempit XD

12. Who would you want to hug next?
every one of them. i love them!

13. Who did you talk to on IM with last?
none. aku tdo awl

14. Who did you go to the movies with last?
my family

15. Who did you comment last?
never did online pun

16. Who have you known the longest?
1. she's my bestie

17. Who is the funniest?
number 3. bile nk jmpe dye? aku nk sekeyh dye

18. Who will you always be friends with no matter what?
onetwothree. four has been not in touch wif me. wtf

19. Who do you see the most?
number one! its all about her kan?

20. Do you know any of their families?
ain's family i know most. yg alin, just heard stories jep.

21. Would you help 4 out in a fight?
he's a big boy. pandai pandai la sendiri

22. If 1 got dumped would you date them?
lmao. mak dye mesti marah!

23. If 2 was sick what would you do?
ask him to telan hubat.

aku suke berlagak ;|

yipee~! akhernya suda dapat menyiapkan laman web tugasan kelas komputer uhh (n_n) walaupon ta berape nak lawa (huu sedar diri), yg penting dah siap woo.. tapy ta msok domain lgy la. ni bru draft. bukan nk berlagk cume, teragak excited jerp. first time kann *wink wink tulisan uh agak busan kan? dont blame me ok. bile msok pc aku, font dye tukar. kat kelas uh okayy jerp ;/ ape ape pon, naty aku siapkan lps uh bule show off kat korg! ngagahahaha (gelak besa yg sgt sgt kejam)

nothing else to do ke? (n_n)

petang petang tade kje, && i dont feel like melipat baju, so this is wht i achieved instead.
girl's confessions (n_n)
1. Do you sleep in your bra?
yes or no, ape kaitan ngn survey ni?

2. Have you kissed any one on your top list?
does ain counts?

3. Are you happy with your looks?
i'm not doing breast job so i guess i am kot! ;)

4. Do you enjoy drama?
agaknye

5. Are you a girly girl?
urghh! i would kill me if i'm one (^_^)

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
my mom, pagy td

7. Small or large purses?
small, big one's a fuss

8. Are you short?
yes i am. but tall enuff to hit my sis on the head ;) im the best!

9. Do you like someone?
yes, abang tesco ;P

10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
i would smack his head && cocok mate dye

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
sometimes (o_0)

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
mksudnye?

13. Are you a bitch?
yes, && you're a gigolo XD

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
i dont celebrate halloween. tatot la XD

14. Are you double jointed?
wht does that supposed to mean? aku kurang fasih bhs inggeris

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
atas jalan tar, kat sekolah during camping. beat that people

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
last nite adek ku smack funtut aku. i will revenge! grrr

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
people think i'm related to DINA the singer. am i?

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
my friends dont have last name. takan pggil pak mat kot?

20. How many guys do you think will end up reading this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
a lot, i guess. sbb dyeorg ni pervs. haha!

ah fai oh ah fai

fuuhhh its 1 am in the morning. dakuh baru shj habes bwt homework website uhh. penat teramat. maklumlah aryni kne tunjuk kat aji ;) berasak-asak la aku bwt XD but, it turned out well && im proud of my last minute work ;) (dengan bangge nyeee)
sok kne bgun awl so im gonna hit the bed after this. kalu ta, sok tyme class lgy, sure penat gila gila ;P
td online myspace kjap. ade cumment dr my fav datok ;) datok ku ni name fiyan. yerp, sbb aku tade datok, so i decided to adopt new datoks XD he is one of 'em..huuuh.. dye rase ape yg aku rase jgk. miss him dearly tapy ta sempat nk berbicara. haduih. apela naseb haku. dah lame dah kiteorg ta sembang ouh. dye tu da la gyle. aku pon sasau. bile mix, jd gysau blended! tape datok! naty kite sembang smpai lebam lebam oke! :) miss u miss u.
ptg td teman zaty tggu ckgu memandu dye (sbb dye dtg ngn haku nek moto) , ah fai kot name dye ;) zaty kate dye garang. takut aku mendengarnya. harap harap ku ta dpt si ah fai tu ah ek. kang aku park tepy jalan suruh dye jalan kaki balik broga XD
FYI, aku tggu ary nk dpt 'P' moto aku! yay! lps ni aku sah membawa penumpang di belakang tnpa rasa takot polis kejar! XD
haih bile aku nk kurus ^_^

merempit, buley tahan bahaye la KOT XD

huhu bru pulang dr merempit opps merayap ngn moto kesayangan bersame2 adek kt rinching nih. ;) it was practically fun until.... (jengjengjengjeng!) ble tang simpang utame uh, aku tgh ngelak kereta aw. huuuu lps uh pulak aku meluru keluar tnpa berhenti! taw taw ade moto laen kat depan haku. mamat uh pun breekkk cepat2! aku tidak dapat berbuat ape2 kecuali bwt muke toye dan terus memecut. (kalu aku brek, sah2 la gig aku jonggang naty!) mmbe mmat uh woi! aku lak. hahaha aku tataw nk bwt hape bro. sorry sgt2. lps uh aku terus balik umah, ketakutan! hahaha kang dye kejar aku, bek aku lari. XD muke mamat uh cuak gilebabi. aku buley gelak lagy! kuang hajo aku ni eh? ;p ape2pon, nseb aku bek && nseb abg uh pon buley tahan bek jgk ah. idop lgy aku kan? haha XD laen kali aku berenty ah kat simpng uh, dun worry. cume td aku tgh ngelak kete. sorry eh bro? ^_^

ilapugilebabisyg! ;) semoga kita kekal hebat di jalan! :P

today, very the boring! XD

sebenarnye aku tgh cari ilham nk bwt homework klas comp uh. yeah, aku skrg tgh ngaji computer XD tapy aku tade mic office 2007 ah. ssah sket plus very the malas! haha new phrase. tbe2 lak adekku pekik, "weyh, dah msk nasik belum huh? lana nk pegy skewl pukul 12 naty!" hurgghh kacau daun jerp. so, terpkse bergegas masak nasik ngn telur dadar. then teringat another adek yg bakal pulang. takan nk makan telu jep kan? so, masak la lgy satu laok. TAUGEH XD hahaha no idea of what to cook anymore. baseide, naty aku tmbh ar lauk tunjuk! ;)

atas: taugeh chef morn masak! and under it, telur mcm2 kaler. haha! silly XD

yesterday i watched the bourne movie. (skrg aku tgh giler movie, tuap2 ary bwt movie marathon kalu tade sape interframe. i think im gonna have to wear specs naty! ;] )the first one to be specific. best jgk ah. i never knew it was a greatt movie before. igtkan mission impossible was the ultimate action pack spy movie. tapy bourne serires is wayy better! ;) lps ni aku nk tgk yg second one to ah. besides, in a way, tht jason guy also looks hot ah. mesti korg kate aku ni lmbt && ketinggalan ah. XD pedulik hape aku. asal movie uh besh, i dont care ;)

new year celebration at pudu

yeah, i know its kinda a bit late to show off the pict but heck, im excited! so who cares kalu lmbt?

suddenly i thought...

daammnnn its so bored being at home with nothing interesting to other than helping my mom XD hanging out was impossible cause my girls and i don't really live in a same taman. uuughh!
so, after being tortured of boredness, i decided to have some fun, on youtube. (tv wont cure me anymore ;] ) i found one of the vids on pengkids and some even featuring their girlfriend. yeah, as in steady GIRLFRIEND. i have nothing against them for sure. but i know lot of the people out there does. they commented on how pengkids should not interfere with the hukum alam. I'm sure they are quite aware of that. its not like they wanted to be sinful ayte? i think they just need time to change into who they really are.
i strongly disagree with some of the community who seems to claim they understand this group but in reality just hate them as much && just wanted to show off. i mean, if u really understand them, why push these group && make their live suck? they are still humans, for goodness sake! its just situations that may have affected them and turn them into what they feel is the best to enable them to protect themselves. yes, they are actually trying to protect themselves.
don't prejudice them. its not really their choice of being a pengkid. someday, they'll realise that they don't need to change to make sure they are protected. someday, their true self will come back && lets hope for the best oke!

urm btw, the new year's pict are not ready yet! i'll post it as soon as i find where the camera is ;)