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will upload some photos, some good ones when i am done experimenting on the patterns :)

know me this well? think again

i'll do whatever i want. i know, it is wrong. but my heart has it's own way of healing itself. has it's own way of finding peace. has it's own way of finding joy. has it's own way of having fun.

i need no one to tell me what's what and what's good or bad for my heart.

everyone has their own own shit to be taken care of. don't care for mine.

i am not normal. but that doesn't mean i am not like the others. i still have feelings. still have weak spots, like all of you.

i am not mature but i can still think of the pros and cons. i can determine which is better or worse. being childish doesn't mean i don't have responsibilities. there are times that i can be playful and there are times that i can have a serious face.

i give in most of the time. but not in all aspects. friends and family are the first ones. there are times that i shall stand up for my pride and there are times that i don't care at all. and count me out if you want me to stand up for politics and stuff like that. i don't know no pekida, mafia nor samseng. i see you as you are-an individual. a weak one.

and if you come up to me and present yourself as a hater, a racist and all of that, be prepared to be hated. because these people are the ones i hate so much. to be more accurate, i despise them. because i've been in many situations. many bitter ones. just because i am different and i don't hold onto the same things as you do, doesn't make you any different from me. as far as i know, all have been taught to be nice to others. guess you never tried being a good devotee.

and don't give me no shit about love. it's all bullshit. i ain't never gonna fall anymore. because i've known so many lies and so many cheats. no more games for me. i'm no player in this love game anymore. but i'm still a player in other games. play my game baby, and i'll give you what you want.

so, that's a 'lil bit of a description if you think you don't really know Amornrad Rattanakthada. if you are still interested of knowing me even after the hater-like-intro, be my guess and say hi to me :) love ya'all :)

to do

TO DO : learn how to play guitar

Buuuuuuuuut i need to own one first. Hehe.. I think imma start learning it during the break :)

pray hard that i keep this enthusiasm till then :)

lepas tu buley la goreng guitar sedap-sedap!!! :)

photo take form About.com

don't push it too far baby

don't push my patience too far, okay? i seem to look all jolly-and-i-don't-have-a-damn-problem-in-life but the truth is, i ain't that perfect.

i'll always try hard to be jolly and stuff like that. but i ain't no clown okay.

see, now you made me post emo-ish blogs lak. so bad la u ni. *gedik*

back to the story.

if i say no, it's a no. unless if you know me well enough to persuade me to say yes. and not much people can do that. and on't ask me to spill out other people's secrets. you ain't gonna succeed love:)

and don't ask me to do stuff that i really don't want to. hell, it sure ticks me off. who likes to be forced, kan? plain logic. but, if it's logical and productive, i might think twice :) *wink wink*

post ini bukanlah bragging punye post. saje je. to tell people who i really am. because some might find it hard to know me.

just be who you are when you are with me and i'll assure you i'll be too. and don't lie if you're not good enough. because i know. because i'm a pro. hahahahah! *pengakuan grace about me*

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